another post from the office.
its a monday morning. in the office. and monday mornings bring along with it its monday morning ramblings. no less. much has happened this weekend. much more then i would have ever thought or dreamed possible. but extremely thankful for it no less. thankful for changes and experiences and chatters with ppl that would just define your life somehow. someway.
to all those (who like me love the routine).
grab any moment to step out of it. you'll find it most worthwhile
the weekend, like most, began on the friday night. the idea was simple, to play squash. we ended up ordering macs and eating in lucas' place watching jeff dunham and his puppets. kick-ass i would summarize, no less. would have enjoyed it much more if i weren't watching achmed for the billionth time, and wasnt so fatigued from the squash and work. oh well. that was just the start of things to come.
saturday was highlighted by a wedding. i do admit i stay pretty much in time with my emotiional side of things, (though its a long shot to ask me to cry or smth), but yeah. the wedding of dawei and cheryl just brought to a close, and marked the beginning of a chapter. cheryl, always the one willing to do the dirty work, the cheerful girl (now lady?) that i never fail to look up to since i first came YF eons ago, not looking out of place one bit in her wedding gown. and dawei looking smart and composed in his suit (and probably shaking, even under his toenails, for good reason too). cant imagine getting married man. seriously. waiting for the bride at the end of the aisle. the big occasion, with relatives family and friends, the anticipation, the expectations, the love. encapsulated into one moment. its no wonder they call it the big day. (as you can tell. not really a big fan of these things. but. yeah. life is life. is life.)
yday was a big spin man. seriously. (ok its SO UNLIKE me to rattle off day by day and event by event, like im broadcasting my life or something. i hate that. but weekend was just. one kind. one kind)
at least it STARTED off simply enough. woke up a bit late hence ended up at AG a bit late as well,
but i guess nothing was to really prepare me for the day ahead. crazy as it is sane. and as down to earth and in-your-FACE as it could ever be.
like the thousand and one other things in the world, foolishness, is relative. aunt lily has been challenging our AG of late to think, consider, and reconsider the role of God and Christ in our lives, and personally, somehow its starting to hit home the point. the whole picture that is. what i heard on saturday about building a relationship, talking and spending time with Him daily, and just wanting to, and not being afraid of doing things, just because you're a christian. the basics, as some would call it, the essentials, to be more apt. foolish, i would consider myself now, and a lot of the time. the way i approach things, and all sorts of stuff i guess. bottom-line is that what we perceive as wisdom and knowledge just pales in comparison to true knowledge from above. and He uses examples and situations to remind us daily, how far we fall short. (but still, we have to keep up. i guess) (and bottom line is a finance term, a very simple one, but a finance one, nonetheless)
i got brought back to my rj roots later that day in the east side of singapore later that day, and a stark reminder of what i have been so used to not so long ago, the elitism, the swagger of sorts, and of course, not being regarded as the smartest one around (because simply i'm not, and there are tonnes of other smarties out there, totally whooping my ass. kinda.) just that this time we're not the simple jc kids that i wish i still was anymore. though they look the same, i can barely recognize some of them, the way they puff like a chimney, complain about giving tuition, working internships and driving cars, and eating supper late into the night. not that any of these things are inherently bad (except smoking. which is. just. yeah.) but just reminded me that the chase of grades is never gonna end, not that exams will always remain there to be taken, but just that, the exams take another form, another level, and bring with it a greater reward, of sort. incredibly tangible ones of course.
i would be a liar (anyone would) to say that i don't care about money. true i do. i admit it. but i just don't believe in working myself to the ground day in day out (though a 6-figure annual salary is just. man) but yeah. the prospects, the possibilities, the stories of the life. and just. woah. and i think the introduction to the fold is what that is most overwhelming. that there ARE actually ppl out there in Singapore living out this kinda life, the spots of light in the window you see in the night sky in the middle of the night maybe, while others are sitting at home watching tv, in the pubs with their friends, or even. doing their bible study with a group of friends. and while they jet home in the Audis or 7-Series-es, the others go home in their Altis or Swifts, or even take the good old public transport home. the stories that scare us, that intrigues us, the stories that ppl tell in fear of the lives that they lead. but the stories that im hearing more and more, from some of my peers, of the lives they dream of living. [the Big 4. GMS. ML. (bottom line?). mere letters/jargon to me 2 months ago. now. as real as ever]
money money money
must be funny
its a rich man's world
they say that they'll just go in a few years, then they'll back out to work some place else. but will they be willing to? give up the life, give up the aspirations. (the wonder of investments make sustainability all the more possible. but anyway) my friend was saying, after you get used to driving about, for one or two years, the convenience and all, would you ever take the public transport again? (even though its bleeding you dry. kinda reminds me about relationships at times. hurh) reminds me of the camel through the eye of a needle thing man. the more you have, the harder it is to give it all up. treasures stored on earth? its a daily battle.
a line from 'are you smarter then a 5th grader', from a guy when he was preparing to answer his $500,000 question, or risk dropping to $25,000. (or maybe he was cocky and knew the answer and was just trying to create drama)
"I came to this show with nothing anyway, and I came to this show to win the million dollars, I must give it my best shot"
or something like that. disclaimer i maybe wrong, but that was my takeaway from what he said.
have i said this before?
sometimes i feel that the abundance of choices is a headache, its a curse
or maybe its like the doors thing. knock knock knock til your hands bleed
but on the other side, all the knocking is just gonna be worth all that door-slamming in your face
please give faith to see this through
welcome back to work babies. FIVE SOLID DAYS OF WORK. WOOHOO.
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